People who can't stand mushi-mushiness, this is not the post for you to read :) whyy? Cause I'm going to type whatever is in my heart for this special dude here, Syed Akbar Rafsanjani, SAR.

Dearest Syed Akbar Rafsanjani,

you know me better than any other guys, don't include my family obviously. What I meant was, among all the guys that I've dated or go on a stead with, you're the only guy that understand me, and try his very best to take care of my feelings. You may not be the guy that every girl wish for, to be frank, you're not even my taste, but your personality and your sincerity towards me, just opened my heart to accept you. After so long, a guy managed to open the doors of my heart, that has been shut for so long. I'm grateful that you happened to be in my life story, and I wish you would played the role in my life forever, but I believe people come and go, right? I know it would be great if I could just say all these sweet words right in front of you, or even write them in the letters, but trust me boy, I'm just not brave enough to show you how much you meant to me. Seeing you leave would be the last thing I ever want! People see us, and they go, " awww, sweetnyer korang!" or they'll go, " cute lah korang together, match gitu" but they don't know what I have to went through, and what you have to went through, to grow the love between us, to build the trust that was once ruined! We took a step by step basis. You never gave up when I already did. You still wanted to prove to me! And now when you're gone, I'm missing you damn much. I guess it is true, when someone says, " when he's gone, you'll start to realise" But trust me, I'm not regretting. If my love for you is sincere enough, then when the day you walk out of those doors, my status will still be 'reserved for SAR' :')