I missed playing in the rain. Fall and injured my friends/ myself. Ever tried crying in the rain? IT HELPS! trust me! I am no expert in this whole crying and emoing, but trust me it helps to make you feel good especially when you're down. Cry with a smile! I am being so random here. What's with posting in english right? Especially nowadays, I'm trying to improve my English here! And hopefully it helps.

My birthday celebration is nearing, I'm having a pinch of disappointed, excited and afraid. Afraid that the celebration wouldn't work out great. Fine would be good actually. Wtv it is, I know I have my family and cousins to cheer me up when needed. Excited to spend my longs days with cousin, bonding and laughing! Disappointed, they promise and plan so many stuff, but when the time comes, guess what? THEY BACK OFF! I don't know what I should say, seriously. If I were to give my comments, then people will go, " OH GOD, YOU'RE STILL A KID!" then I'll go *silent* Then they'll go " You know nothing, you don't understand" but I really think that they should listen to what a kid has to say, about her feelings! I wanted this celebration so badly, because I want spent my time with my cousin, and guess what? A family won't be there for the whole 3 days and 2 nights.! I just can't elaborate how I feel. You make me all excited, and now? I'm hoping things would turn out fine! Aisyah is on the sad mood! nyehh! changed!

I guess, it's okay, right? I have to think matured-ly right? I knoww. Aisyah has to put herself in their shoes, but the reasons are so not REASONABLE! It was planned 5 months ago! 5 MONTHS! not 5 days! blearghhh! okay done!

I want enjoy myself before I start my intensive revision on my own during or maybe after the June holidays. Actually I'm bored! And I'm posting an entry to keep myself away from thinking stupid and sweet stuff :) I guess I should turn to sleep now.

chalos!

Lots Of Love;

Siti Aisyah.